My father has always been one of the most important people in my life. A rock. Someone I knew I could always turn to, could always trust with anything.
He’s honest, loyal, and forgiving.
And for the most part, my father and I have always seen eye to eye. And when we didn’t, were usually able to come to an agreement with little anger.
I respect my father and value his opinion above anyone’s on this earth.
Something I never expected to get was his cold shoulder. To have him turn on me when I would face some of my biggest trials.
But I’ve carried this burden for a while now. Unable to quite face it head-on. Wondering if maybe I had imagined the whole situation.
I don’t remember the last time I saw him… A month ago? Very strange for my father and me.
But we’re both on opposite ends. And neither one of us is willing to inch towards a compromise.
My father told me he disagreed with my move to Tennessee. And he wasn’t happy about my divorce. Or about my decision not to go back to college.
So he and my step-mother have decided to remove themselves from my life. Something I still don’t quite understand. I live only 45 minutes away from home.
It’s not like I have to buy a plane ticket to visit. Or them me.
Still, I sit here with my cell phone in my lap and contemplate calling in anger. To drive home just how much they’re hurt me. To yell and scream and be absolutely childish about the whole situation.
Because I feel stabbed by the one person I never thought would hurt me.
But I can’t hurt him. I can’t yell at him. And I can barely voice my broken heart without tears.
Yet, I have no idea what to do with him. He’s my father after all. Do I put all of my memories of him away in a shoebox and shove it under my bed? Forget about him?
Easier said than done. Because I’m stuck here where he left me, holding the broken pieces of a relationship that can’t be helped with duck tape or crazy-glue.
5 Back Talkers:
You're making me cry so hard. This time is really tough for you. Pleeeeeeaseee let me know if I can be there for you in any way. You're always in my prayers. And hopefully things will start falling into place very, very soon.
I'm so sorry to hear about this. Unfortunately, it's not the first time I've heard this kind of story.
I've been in a similar situation in the past, though not for the same reasons. The hard lesson for me was accepting that nothing I did or said was going to change the situation. All I could do was give it to God and move on with my life. Eventually, it all worked out...5 years later.
Please hang in there and remember that God sees you in a totally different way than humanity does. Try to rest in that...it's not easy but ultimately very satisfying if you can get there.
Prayers for you.
This post is tearing at my heart. Recently, I had to end my relationship with my father. (But can you ever really END it? Probably not.) He was a negative force in my life and I needed to give it a clean break.
I cannot even believe that a parent would turn their back on their child, no matter if they do feel like you made a "mistake" in divorcing your husband and moving to Tennessee. They still need to have your back and support you. THAT'S WHAT A PARENT DOES!
Please, please, please feel free to e-mail me (stephanywrites@gmail.com) if you need to talk to someone about this. While we don't have the same situation, I do know what it's like for a parent to turn their back on you.
You are an amazing, strong woman and I'm sending lots of prayers your way!
I'm so sorry. That's terrible. Your parents are supposed to be there to support you through the hard times, not let you down. But I promise it will be okay, and that you two will be able to reconnect with each other. If he truly loves you, it won't matter. Everything will resolve.
Wow - I'm so sorry...BUT I feel your pain. I don't know the details of your all's relationship, but mine is very similar. Only my dad moved across the country from me. We don't have much of a relationship anymore. Do what you can to salvage it. :-)
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